Monday 26 November 2007
{ 21:57:00 }
oh dear god, im feeling so forlorn right now..
male attentions doesnt help cos its absurdly disconcerting..
& it makes people assume tat im bimbotic or promiscuous..
really, dont ever envy me cos im not worthy of all this..
k, its cajoling having people offer u drinks in the club..
having someone blatantly checking u out in public places..
or bumping into the guy who is head over heels with u..
but its so much of vexatious to me.. indeed.
oh god, let me go back to my lower secondary sch days..
i wana be tat stubborn girl who retaliates & hate life so much..
if tats the only choice, i have to make tis stop..
god, im willing to sacrifice myself for it.. please..
Saturday 24 November 2007
{ 20:47:00 }
im at the cafe, chilling, aftr meeting madir.. sham's cousin's bestie. haha!
wat a coincidence! i cant recall how we knew each other but he's been
in my msn list fr a very long time.. bad memory. sorry!~
he's goin to audiohouse to get a mp4 so i tagged along..
haha! tis guy's crazy.. kept tempting me with the strawberry ice cream )):
as much as i yearn fr it, i had to say 'NO' cos its not wednesday night.
darn it! i want the ice cream so much but, but, i cannot. hmpff.
well, i really enjoyed his company.. stop teasing me abt my height. geramm!
though im still wondering why he kept saying tat im scary..
hmm, weird guy. still havent got the explaination though.. cepat tell me!!
can find out another day, as fr now.. im meeting marcus. ((: takecare!!
Tuesday 13 November 2007
{ 20:49:00 }
elated! sugar's coming back soon,
in a month's time!!
gracious, im super happy till
i let my students off earlier((:
thanks yanti for informing me, i appreciate it lots!
hmm, im meeting her on monday.. hehe!
1 month? very soon, gotta shape up myself.
no time to lose.
really cant wait to see u again!
hopefully u werent tortured there.
miss u sugarhoney love((: ((:
Friday 9 November 2007
{ 19:17:00 }
lovelies..
gosh! its a surprise tat im struck by flu..
how irritating.. now, everything seems lifeless & i've lost appetite! )):
clubbing cliques smsing, asking me to club..
i know, i know.. tat he's away fr work & i shouldnt go..
should i? feeling so sickly.. yet tempted to go.. (i need a punching bag!!)
i've been crashing at home & there's nothing to do..
how i wish he could call or even an sms from him..
its already our month together.. so fast *heartrending*
sleepless nights are taunting me.. i so need you here.
im off to cook some dishes before dad comes home.
good day people.. *sobbing*
Thursday 8 November 2007
{ 21:32:00 }
Happy 26th Birthday Sugar!
*i wish i still had you here with me*
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(sigh!) im home..
got restless in the evening so decide go fr a breather..
headed down to the web thingy in west coast park.. (=
(takes a deep breath!) memories tat wont perish..
well, did some reflections on life & wat path i've chosen..
whether it was a 'outta my fickleness' or ' a thought through' decision..
im sure tat having him wasnt a wrong decision..
nobody's perfect i must say, everyone has their flaws. i admit tat.
the lesson he taught me which im still tryna grasp: Be Mean.
haha! anyway, i backtrack to the carpark area to relive 9oct.
i felt tears began streaming so decided to head home.. memalukan!*
in the bus, i kept thanking GOD fr making me fastidious ((:
gonna clean my room then off fr a cycle.. night, my angels!
sleep tight, muacks!
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{ 00:02:00 }
first and foremost..
i would love to give a BIG shoutout to boyfie, isham..
HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY TO
MY DEAREST SUGAR!!
"Happy Birthday ToYou!!
Happy Birthday To YOU!
Happy Birthday MR KUKU..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!"
nyahaha!! aaaawwww, my sugarly dear's 26 already.
haha! damn, im so so super duperly
missing my sleepyhead koo koo!!
so sugarhoney, whats your birthday wish?
laadeedumm~*
doubt you can reply so i'll just keep wondering.. teehee.
since you're overseas, i'll pray to GOD everytime
so that you'll be granted excellent health
and that you'll be in your fittest physique everyday..
my whole family wishes you a " Happy Birthday" too.
its unfortunate you're not here to celebrate.
aniway, i do hope that tobacco
isnt becoming your bestest buddy or else..*shriek*
your cough's already so terribly bad okay.
if it is, i'll personally kill you upon your arrival here.
hiak hiak hiak!!
thus, please be a good boy ya darling mrKUKU aka tom sham.
whakaakaa!
wonder when will we be able to celebrate your birthday.
hmm.. you'll return after 2months. nevermind.
shall do careful thinking later.
i cant believe i've spent yesterday evening
watching kenichi's episode 10 til 25!
i thought i would be sick of the anime after viewing it..
somehow it became too intriguing
to the extend that i didnt feel like eating.
astounding. but now, tummy's making a fuss. urgh!
its wee hours in the morning so i cant afford to eat
so im heading to bed!
((= sleep tight my loves..
hugs&kisses to mend your day!
p.s. i've manage to find out miu san's nickname in the 21st episode..
(= its Dairy Cow. stupid kisara! hmpff.
Wednesday 7 November 2007
{ 14:24:00 }
a chilly wednesday morning somehow perfectly blended
into the loneliness tat i felt..
i 've been enduring, fighting back the tears since we said gdbye..
tat big assuring hug (sigh!) tranquility aint the word fr today.
kept drifting in & out of sleep.. our night span was way too short..
yar, i know its frm 9am yesterday til 7am but it went by hastily..
(pick me up aftr exam, had breakfast at NTU, relax at your house,etc.)
but the intensity of sadness vanquished me when i tink of your departure..
ouh why?.. why cant i just oblige to it? wouldnt tat make me less flustered..
wat a fool im becoming. sugar, forgive me fr being such a weakling..
cant even bring myself to rply when you told me u'll be leaving fr 2mths!
spent yesterday with his family at ICA to get their passports.
it was sweet of him to drive me home cos i wanted to shower (i felt sticky!)
was given 15min to freshen up which end up with me obtusely taking
30min (im so sorry fr the delay! though i must admit tat
being able to makeup & get dressed so fast was a charm!)
we proceed to tanjong pagar railway for dinner..
i had numerous titillating conversation with his parents especially his dad.
well, im extremely contented with the way tings are now ((=
(sigh!) honey, how i wish tat u're still beside me..
cracking me up with your silly faces, your beguiling smile..
now im left with the neoprints, memories & your darling lappie..
aaaww, sugar ImissYOU so much! & IT HASNT EVEN BEEN A DAY!!
GOD, please watch over him.. i want nothing bad to befall my precious..
iLOVEhim so very much *sobb* its just a slight change from a month to 2.
ahahaha.. *cries* just gotta adapt unwillingly then (smacking my head!)
how i wish i hadnt fall asleep even for a split second. wasted.
shouldnt have taken a nap in the car to sembawang park
nor fall asleep around 5am after eating nuggets & fries*boohoo*
there's no point regretting. i need an organiser for the 2months..
i'll put your HOMEteam card to good use k sugar? (=
as for now, im gonna take a quick shower.
once done, i'll carry lightweights while watching kenichi!
hopefully everything runs smoothly so you can return home sooner..
if i experience halcyon days i'll come by your place (smiles widely!)
alright then, off to my tasks! BIGhugsBIGkisses* takecare sugar!
Monday 5 November 2007
{ 23:10:00 }
love ya love ya love ya love ya..
missing you missing you missing you..
hehe! i know laa i patut blajar.. promise, its a 10min post je ((:
thanks fr accompanying me to return the remote control kat vivo.
went to new york pizza to get the brooklyn meal((:
then he drove to mount faber to eat there. haha!
we came there & saw a car which got dented by a bus.
at 1st we were takot tat his car also will go through the same fate.
he just parked there with positive thoughts & left it at tat..
at the top of the hill, got lotsa China tourist..
they very kecoh! heh. they kept talking & taking weird photos.
mkn already.. plan to stay at mount faber but went to kent ridge.
sat at kent ridge & talked about our life & future expectance.
lotsa sacrifices to be made though but im willing.
since its the best for us & everyone tats involved.
haahaa! yesterday go sentosa til today morning. siao.
down memory lane on a sunday some more((: loved it.
apparently it rained so heavily so we sat in the car..
play blackjack, taiti, etc. i sucked at it lor.
drove up to the highest hill in sentosa..
cont playing cards & gambled with sweets. *wth!-
cards got boring, things got a lil steamy. *ehem-
after that, we went tokent ridge area for supper
it was murtabak sardine, hmm..
tiring day? yepp. i suppose.
anyways sweetheart.. you're leaving on 7th, fr a month.
im so gonna miss you very much.
goodnight, i've got my final paper tomorrow.
wish me luck!
*see 10 min post only mah-.
