Wednesday 27 February 2008
{ 03:20:00 }
Fidelity At Its Worst? hmm...
you've responded to my question in a candid manner.
hoping that your sense of humor would
override the intensity of the situation.
ive been lied to, way too many times that i am now. thankful.
cos im able to see the vague line between the truth & the lie.
well, the least you could do is to offer an honest & heartfelt apology..
somehow, that would be totally pointless
cos clearly you’re not remorseful.
has philandering now become synonymous with fidelity? i wonder.
all i ever want was a decent-looking companion
who would lie down with me,
as we watch the sun meet the horizon, slowly disappearing behind the waves,
to gaze at the beautiful bright shining stars, counting them..
just to lose count so that we could start all over again..
enjoying each other’s company & unravel unknown facts
of each other as days goes by.
all of this without any sexual tension, arguement or whatsoever.
my expectations weren’t sky high but..
why does it seem so impossible to find one?
i guess the reason as to why ive not unlock my heart
nor my mind to other people is..
probably cos they’ll trigger complications & confusion in me.
im not brave nor sane enough to deal with it.
for all i know, all these while, ive depicted my life
through the eyes of a novel.
Sunday 17 February 2008
{ 15:44:00 }
i cant make it to the course that i want in poly
due to my science results..
dead meat. retaking never paid off..
i simply suck at the whole subject!
i dont wanna apply for ITE buti have to..
its something that ive always dreaded.
i can visualize the upcoming problems i'll be facing..
shit fcuk!
ive no mood, no mood.
waiting for results is killing me! torture.-
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to think that i am so dumb? stupid? hopeless like fcuk?! urgh!
