Thursday 13 March 2008
{ 08:50:00 }
eversince this whole job search started,
the relationship has decelerated by a notch. no may be two.
err.. i aint so sure. what im sure of is, we have misunderstandings.
back-to-back.
truly speaking, its hard to cater to him..
i thought only girls/women (the female gender) had PMS.
never did i know that men had it too, only worse.
shucks*
guess i gotta bear with all this downfall and perhaps try to
boost his self esteem back or something.
im not sure im capable of that cos i havent been able to do
as such for my own pathetic self! darn it!
*
oh god, please grant me the patience to withstand this phase in life. hopefully we can pull through together, out of this downfall and pick up back to those happy times. i really adore him so much and i wont mind sacrificing just to help him back on track. amin.*
{ 10:46:00 }
life circumstances, for sure..
has taken us & our relationship for a bumpy ride.
dont you agree, sugar? hmm..
january & not forgetting, february.
these two months has been a test of patience..
when i say patience, i literally mean it.
we've got conflicting views on loads of issues..
& debating has been our 'vibe' since the 2nd date.
on a few occasions,
our misunderstandings almost drove us close to insanity
or even, a life-has-to-go-on route..
well, everything in this world works both ways.
so, compromising became an important word in our dictionary.
gosh, i wonder how we managed that.
being an adolescent,
its always been a thrill to venture into the unknowns.
getting advice from the experienced ones isnt so captivating.
so i tend to brush it aside & carry on with my plan.
& then, like he says," shit happens."
im finally able to feel how its like to be loved.
by someone besides my family, relatives & bestfriends..
the feeling of being secured & comfortable with myself.
having someone who appreciates the finest things in life.
someone i could look up to as my role model..
someone who is not afraid of sharing his thoughts though it may hurt..
a person whom i could see my future with..
words truly cant describe how it feels to have him in my life.
i wont want anything to replace this phase.
though i may be a teenager, i was never treated like one.
at times when external factors cause chaos in my mind,
the only thing i needed to do was to look at him..
& without realisation, serenity cleanses my thoughts.
i look forward to each day, just wishing to see him again..
the face that makes me despise & love him at the same time..
the childish & mature side to his characters & conversations.
it pleases me.. just to be there, beside him..
listening to everything single thing he has to say.
ouh sugar, why must you be so adorably irresistible?
huh? cant stand it.. i just wish i could be with you 24/7.
whatever it is.. i love you so very much.
i appreciate every single thing that you've showered me.
i wont want to trade anything for all this..
thanks mrKuKu aka MrHaTe (=
muaCks! BIGhugs&kisses!!
gdmorning to my lovely readers ((:
& dear GOD, you are indeed ALMIGHTY.
thanks for my life, family, nadiah & isham.
loved.
Monday 3 March 2008
{ 00:46:00 }
a mixture of feelings.
gosh!*
ive yet to get my thoughts all straighten out.
what happened just now was a complete misunderstanding.
and its all thanks to agitation that i made that decision.
i shouldnt have brought up the issue, at all. *sigh*
still, you know how much i love you and that i cant bear to leave you.
i know how much i needed you, like you needed me.
i cant bear to let you go at all..
perhaps, i should consider a time off.
we've got into many misunderstandings lately..
with everything on my mind, time is never enough sugar.
so sorry sweetheart..
i truly am.
now i justcant stop thinking of the future..our future.
ive yet to apply for the jobs.
just in case i cant get the course i want..
partly because im feeling like a goner...
