♫♪♥A²DeeLA™ TWENteen, popular & saucy!
am i single or attached? hmm..
5th June 1989 gemini the twins BuKit View Pri St. MarGaret'S sEc ItE cOlleGe WeSt (CleMeNti) please leave if you despise me ((: i love my baby, so quit trying-
precious .
GOD AlMighty
cherished, my FaMily
am Obsessed with myself
iLy gFF, Nadiah
thaHOTsexy boyfriendOFmine(:
accessories.clubbing.cute hot guys.
movies.drama/acting.music. cooking.household chores.gym trainings. making new friends((: chocolates.intriguing storybooks.
prettydresses.ben&jerrys. tasmania plushies (:
mocha/caramel frappe!slurps- mascaras&eyeliners everlast.adidas.nike. chaos.forever21.mango.
photography.photoshop&photoscape.
cottonon.la senza.zara.
victoria secrets. apple bottoms.
vintage inspired clothings. charles&keith.heatwave. mondo.pedro women.
dressups for great occasions
brownsparkly eyeshadows!
tagboard .
execrated .
deceived emotional abuse!*shriek-
traumatic incidents overwhelmed by questions falling in love!!*sobb*
any form of betrayal being treated like a fool being TOO fickle desperateguys*major turnoff!* ending up cashless treachery
backstabbed? being disconsolidated clubbing buayas
iHATEmyself for being too nice )):
desired .
meeting my baby, someday :D lose weight & shape up paramour, sincerely for keeping new handphone !
a GIRLSday Out! (:
be the beauty with brains
being appreciated & loved dragonboating, kayaking , canoeing erm.. some real friends?
go travelling round the World (: karaoke-ing learn to eradicate irritants from life change my room decor ((: bowling? pool?
goals/achievements .
keeping this relationshipalive
get into aarts& sports cca iteStudent Council lose weight to 48kg or toned up bday gift hunting!help- 'A's my results,'B's at least vacation with MokCitDut!(:
GPA 4.0 with scholarship*wishing-
find a stable career! engagement? marriage?!
Whenever im left all alone, I'll ponder I know i may not be the 'perfect' friend & i know too well i may not be the 'ideal' lover So here's what i have to say before hand
Ive had friendships broken too many times & Relationships wrecked at the same time Maybe ive mishandled something so fragile & Lost control of the ship and got it shipwrecked
As i stared at the broken pieces that lay before me I know i got the word 'failure' written all over my face As i looked at those lives whom ive left from that shipwreck I know i got the word 'betrayer' written all over me
So why do i have to be the cause of all this? Is this just meant to be or is god making me see The real truth if its worth the risk To go through such obstacles patiently
So i prayed hard for god to give me strength To get back up on my small two feet Giving me the chance to prove that im no weakling Be it being a friend or a lover to somebody
I may not be the 'perfect' friend But this time i'll try to be the one you can count on I may not be the 'ideal' lover But this time i'll try to be the one you'll fall in love with.
Lovers and Friends.
- BELIEVING
If 'Seeing is Believing' then i'll believe what i see If there are such things as 'Love At First Sight' Then i'll believe that Love do exists
But what if i lost my sight and blindness came upon me Should i not believe in something called love cause i couldnt see? Handicapped i'll forever be Hand over the walking stick to me
Thousands of questions came across my mind When will i ever see? How could i believe again Or should i just let it be? Hoped and prayed hard for a miracle to happen immediately
Somehow your voice came out of nowhere and sang to me a melody It gave me goosebumps and sleeplessnights wondering who you might be I told myself that you may be more to a dream than reality Everytime I closed my eyes its only darkness i see
Its like youve never been a dream but something tells me youre for real But how am i supposed to believe that youre not just a voice in my head So talk to me and tell me who you are or hold my hand so that i can feel To believe that youre real for this time before its a little too late
Thursday 24 April 2008{ 09:11:00 }
lets bow our heads in prayers' for my dearest bestfriend, Nurani Nadiah, who passed on in the wee morning, exactly 2 years ago..
*reciting some prayers..-* AMIN.
*may God bless you and deprived you of all the pain you suffered on Earth. Nad, wherever you're at.. i am missing you deeply.. ive always and still am loving euu.. and treasuring every enjoyable or outrageous moments that we've had throughout those 5yrs in sec sch..*
Monday 21 April 2008{ 23:32:00 }
whats up with guys? whats up with parents? whats up with school these days?
a week has passed since school commenced. somehow, i can seem to find any sense of belonging. many things have been going on and i havent the mood to blog about it. im just typing away to keep my mind off things.
ive found a group of classmates who i could see working with for my entire stay in ITE. i enjoy their company so so much! (= basically, they're the ones that truly brightens up my day lately. i feel so excited to come to school just to see them all bubbly, talking away about their eye-candies or anything, in fact.
family and i are relatively on good terms.. slight misunderstandings like who messed up my dressing table, my pillows disappearing from my bed, etc. i dont have mood swings or bad temper, but i hate it when people re-arranges my stuffs..
apparently, boyfie and i have been arguing a lot lately. the thing is, its over lame issues. petty issues i must say. i cant seem to get him to understand that im tryna cope with a new environment. he seems to disapprove of many things that i do, thought its okayy with my parents. i know that we both have just started a whole new commitment but that doesnt mean we would stray apart..
i really wanna make it for a HNitec Cert. ive already wasted a year retaking my 'O's.. ive no more time. i just wish and hope he'll gimme a lil more time to adapt. and i just wish he knew that raising his voive by notch, wont make me listen to him or focus on the conversation. a calm presence with patient and encouraging words, helps. a lot.
im heading to bed, im too pressure by all this factors of keep the relationship alive. i dont wanna lose him.. neither do i wanna lose myself and end up in a mental asylum. goodnight loves-.
Monday 7 April 2008{ 23:38:00 }
“How have you been?” “Hows life?” Oh, Im great, everything is fine. Everything is superbly wonderful, the skies are blue, the sun is shining brightly, Im injecting humor here and there accompanied by HAHAHA and LOL, Im doing fine, really.
Well, that’s what everyone want as a reply isnt it? If you give them a detailed account of what’s really happening, it will bore them, so yeah, simply Im fine. Yet, sometimes I yearn for someone to talk to and revealed a little too much and obviously they didn’t see that coming, a totally voluntary act on my part and when they reply with the “Oh, okay…” there and then, I knew, I should have just kept my mouth shut.
But there will be a few who would say, “If you need someone to talk to, Im here.” or something along that line, and I’ll start to wonder if they really mean it or they are just saying it for the sake of saying, you know, comforting words. And when I do give them a call, Im disappointed. Why? Because after a few minutes they will say, “Hey I gotta go”/”Eyy, I got to put down because (fill in the blanks).”
Somehow it is true that people who are close to you is the one that will hurt you the most. So buzz off if you think Im vulnerable and fragile. Get a LIFE if you think I deserve all this shit. If you had done any of the above, thanks A LOT ya.
Comments Off. I dont want/need to know what you've got to say.
And to you, Beni Tairi..
it just wasnt meant to be ok? So please, move along. I've gotten over you.
