♫♪♥A²DeeLA™
TWENteen, popular & saucy!
am i single or attached? hmm..
5th June 1989
gemini the twins
BuKit View Pri
St. MarGaret'S sEc
ItE cOlleGe WeSt (CleMeNti)
please leave if you despise me ((:
i love my baby, so quit trying-

GOD AlMighty
cherished, my FaMily
am Obsessed with myself
iLy gFF, Nadiah
thaHOTsexy boyfriendOFmine(:

accessories.clubbing.cute hot guys.
movies.drama/acting.music.
cooking.household chores.gym trainings.
making new friends((:
chocolates.intriguing storybooks.
prettydresses.ben&jerrys.
tasmania plushies (:
mocha/caramel frappe!slurps-
mascaras&eyeliners
everlast.adidas.nike.
chaos.forever21.mango.
photography.photoshop&photoscape.
cottonon.la senza.zara.
victoria secrets. apple bottoms.
vintage inspired clothings.
charles&keith.heatwave.
mondo.pedro women.
dressups for great occasions
brownsparkly eyeshadows!

deceived
emotional abuse! *shriek-
traumatic incidents
overwhelmed by questions
falling in love!!*sobb*
any form of betrayal
being treated like a fool
being TOO fickle
desperate guys*major turnoff!*
ending up cashless
treachery
backstabbed?
being disconsolidated
clubbing buayas
iHATEmyself for being too nice )):

meeting my baby, someday :D
lose weight & shape up
paramour, sincerely for keeping
new handphone !
a GIRLSday Out! (:
be the beauty with brains
being appreciated & loved
dragonboating, kayaking , canoeing
erm.. some real friends?
go travelling round the World (:
karaoke-ing
learn to eradicate irritants from life
change my room decor ((:
bowling? pool?

keeping this relationship alive
get into a arts & sports cca
ite Student Council
lose weight to 48kg or toned up
bday gift hunting!help-
'A's my results,'B's at least
vacation with MokCitDut!(:
GPA 4.0 with scholarship *wishing-
find a stable career!
engagement? marriage?!

Funny when it seems like ive been talking to myself in the mirror lately.
Neither am i crazy nor mentally ill.
Maybe im facing depression but im not gonna let it pull me down or affect me in any ways.
Its not like i dont have people to turn to.
Well i do. Girlfriends, Cheryl and Sammie.
But i chose not to tell them what im facing through right now.
Cause i dont ever want to trouble them.

The way i see it..
Life is a rollercoaster.
Definitely.
When im up at the highest point, i'll be a happy kid excited like no other.
When its time for recession, yeah you know i'll scream like any other human being.
Feeling the rush up in my blood vessels, making my body freeze.

Well i dont get it anyway, why on earth must i ever make unnecessary
naive decisions leading to never-ending problems.
I didnt wish and definitely not pray for all shits to come my way.
If thats how my life path has been set then so be it.
Its not like im ungrateful or anything of that sort instead i am thankful and glad
that im still living and breathing on earth.
Thank god im blessed with a common sense that hasnt lead me to committing suicide.

Its such a sad thing knowing that ive lost weight drastically,
even mom said that ive lost weight and i know she knows why.
I used to eat alot being ignorant of whoever says that im growing fat but now im not like that.
I used to be the talkative one in the house and definitely the LOUD one.
I sure missed getting scolding from annoying brother telling me to SHUT UP.
Or sister's constant temperament when she cant do something.

Now ive been quiet.. a lil too much quiet actually.
I missed those times when i would usually laugh at almost but anything.
Now all i know that ive been smiling, giving a weak smile.
I definitely miss shopping..going in and out of stores finding a particular apparel
to match with my newly bought heels.
But now i got sick of dressing myself up.
Yeah i definitely have changed and i hate this.
Im sick and tired of making sure that i dont hurt anyone
and trying to please people with what they want.
Well what about me?
Has anyone ever asked me what i really want in life?
Ive always been the one who listens but the question is..
For how long will i be like this?
So let me be selfish just for once now but i know, i am never capable to be as such.

Even when im down i kept everything to myself and
when i couldnt hold back any longer the time comes for me to breakdown.
I am at the lowest point in my life right now.
The people whom i thought would understand me has proved otherwise.

God help me.

Now i realize that i want to be closer to god.
HE's the only one who truly understands my emotional and mental state.
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