Tuesday, 20 May 2008
{ 20:49:00 }
"perhaps, i might just be better off w/o euu?"to pursue happiness in life, eu have to put vast measures in yr tracks..
& thru that, u'll learn that to overcome all obstacles,
pain has to be endured & retained to its fullest limits..
never allowing hurt to surpass eu..
but, ive went thru those discomfort with sheer tolerance.
implausibly, i just failed! what mistakes have i made during this journey?!
despite the sacrifices ive made, i keep being a disappointment to evryone.
oh somebody, just decipher my dreams as it discouragingly becomes surreal..
never fall too deep for anything, for if eu do..
eu could feel the potion trickling down yr throat..
pure displeasure of withstanding the pain as it poisons eu.
the feeling prevails, making eu endure the scorching agony of love.
its brings eu to a realm of feeling,
which eu never knew you were capable of handling.
as pure evil unleashes itself, u're bounded by pessimism.
insecurity plays a major factor in my thoughts..
it keeps coming, embracing me & dragging me into an eternal blackhole..
i cant retaliate, i too weak & busy wallowing in self-pity.
i could hear voices enthralling will im being pulled away..
as i view what goes on in my pathetically deranged life,
i ponder about our future.. what have i put myself thru?
how unapologetically u'll look at me when there's a misunderstanding..
i have my utmost faith entrusted in eu yet i feel so misleaded.
where do i stand in anyone's life?
i need answers.. was i a daughter, a sister, a girlfriend or friend?
am i ever regarded as a part of anyone's life?
im aint sure of what im experiencing now.
totally deprived from reality.
brought deep in my thoughts about my gloom future..
today's not an exception, so many issues. omg!
some PeoPLe are indespicably horrid creatures! geez.
no one allows me to render in my perfect imaginary world..
its not that im sucha emotional bitch
but i do need time to recuperate from some issues.
& I Do NeeD PersoNaL QuaLiTy TimE WitH MySELF!
oh life.. oh dear, ohh dear...
what am i doing to myself?!
how could i put myself thru this?
