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Monday 30 June 2008 { 03:29:00 }

finally end of the month(:
but school term holidays ending oh-so-very-soon..
dreading to go back to school but.. haiz..

gosh, im not yet done with my OFA proj..
meeting gfs tmr to discuss BFD proj..
get my homework from liha's locker..
darn. what a bore!

at least my past weekend wasnt sucha bore((:
met my dearest MCD on sat.. supposed to go jB
unfortunately i had a really high temperature on fri night
with constant coughing, migraine & running nose..
change of plan! stick to boring singapore..
haha! (: probably not so boring.

met up in the afternoon & headed to get movie tix..
intended on 'get smart' but 'wanted' ended up as our choice.
apparently, its only 5plus but the other movie timings
had really bad seating left..
we wanted the middle from all angles.. actually he did.

so we had to go ahead with 11:20pm slot & got discount
cos the person attending to us was a relative((:
thanks kak amalina!!
more that 5hrs to go, went to the arcade..
no luck so didnt get anything then went for bowling
same case, had to leave contacts cos fullhouse..
shitto!! grrrrrrrr....

due to hunger sake & Cavana was still under renovation,
we went to Swensens, didnt fancy the service there in Marina Sq
so people, Dont Go Marina's Swensens ya? bad service *hmm..-
while having our meal, the bowling person called so
we kinda had to gobble down our food though its just a little left

reached the bowling place, met muna!(:
my ex-colleague from Mango.
she was with her classmates.. nothing's change. we're still the same..
as per normal, guess. *waiting for answers* yepp, correct.
I-Suck-A-Whole-Lot-In-Bowling!!
at least not much going-into-the-drain scenes.. heh-
we had to get socks cos we wore sandals and..
our feet got a lil sweaty after awhile. yucks-
play 3 games & the obvious winner is darlingMCD!(:

shopped around.. i gotta start back my tshirts.
since some idiot trashed away all my tshirts last time..
but its ok, i'll get myself new ones *sticks out tongue-
shoutout to SA gfs,"i found a shop selling interesting tshirts (:"
i promise to take you guys there some day ya?
got myself tshirts, bf got me some tshirts & off to cathay!

planned on ben&jerry's but was tempted by Starbucks.
so got caramel frappe & saw this stall selling couple tshirts.
oh-so-adorable but the design that we fancy ran outta size.
caught up with suat ling, zaneta & melanie..
ages since ive last seen them but poor suat, she wasnt feeling well..
take care ya? (:

done, got back to PS.. im hooked on sugar's new PSP game
forgot the name le.. nvm, i update again next time..
we had time left so hit the arcade again.. tried a new game yet no luck
wasted loads of cash but.. nvm la. upset xia..
bought drink & head for movie.
great effects, interesting storyline, my secrets revealed..
overall, a definitely must see movie..((:

by the time movie ended, its already 1am..
stay over the night with him.. it just felt cosy being with him
at times, it just felt so weird.. i dont know. im fickle, i know.
i do know that I Love My MCD sincerely & i bet none of those
mats out there can make me feel that way..
by far he's the kuku who can make me despise/love him at the same time
heh-
no offence k baby? muacks!-

bf's dad cooked 'kupang'.. so had that for breakfast..
watched 'cinta fitri' & my dearest sleepyhead went back to sleep..
so i cont playing game before falling asleep also..
work up around 6pm & join his parents for dinner, gossiping..
we kinda talked about a lot of things.. rather interesting(:

left his place after tattoo wars on discovery channel..
went for nasi lemak at boon lay.. bloated like mad okayy?
then kuku go tegur some stuffs la then some 'thing' followed us.
why must you say le? see la.. we kena followed. heh-
nvm. sugar alseep liao so now i wanna go & shower cos jus came home.
takecare loves-

Thursday 26 June 2008 { 18:18:00 }

we had a small celebration for my dad's bday..
cos he ended work at around 5:30pm
then he needed to send my bro to the dental to fix the braces..
my mum & i cooked for him mee siam cos he wanted to eat that
mum did the kuah while i fry the mee((:

here's some pictures-

chocolate brownie(: he's favourite!

that's him, trying hard to cut the brownie cake.
its hard work, i tell you..

ayah & ibu..figuring how & where to cut the cake..

yeah! they've finally decided(:

that's all people.
Happy Belated Birthday Ayah! ((:

Wednesday 25 June 2008 { 23:47:00 }

Student Council Camp

probably one of the most interactive day ever!
darling sent me off to school *thank you!-
i hate to meet him.. wanna know why? *winks-
its bcos once i meet him, i wont want him to leave..
talking about my addiction to him..

i came too early so decide to go buy tidbits
before meeting tammy(:
argh- i cant wait for school to reopen!
kaya toast & milo for breakfast in school
then proceed to 'make a word with your name' game.
apparently its hard to make words with my initial 'F'
so kena forfeit many times.. haiz-
but was cool. i loved it(:

next, waterbomb!- dog & bone style.
getting drenched was all you could ask for.
people tripping, kena sabo, ex-co sabo people..
extremely enjoyable.-

furthemore it was raining!!

after waterbomb, we rest & had lunch..
derrick & aaron reaction to my hp game
was gross but damn blardy funny..
*to derrick, dont make it sound so intimate can?-

we gathered in mph & played 'concentration' then '007'
before the seniors came & we started the treasure hunt!
we looked kinda foolish but it was all fun!
looking forward to the next camp! (:
i love my team, very cooperative..

anyway, after that was 'great wall of china'
bullying guys time!
but there was also a female version!
then we played the eagle & chicken game..
we had to write our 1st impression of people
on a vangard sheet pasted at the back of their shirts..
interesting comments i must say-.

last of all, charades! cracked me up real good.
it totally brightened up my week..
prize giving session & we're done!

* to seniors, thanks for conducting the camp. i had a joyous time.
though i didnt know why i got the sportswoman prize, i'll have to
thank you guys cos i love adidas sports perfume! (:
furthermore, musky perfumes are loved! tc ex-co, we'll meet soon.-

darling fetched us from school & headed for..
FOOD! yes, Food!
drove to harbourfront interchange foodcourt
joked in the car til our tummy ached..

darling was so jumpy today..
teasing tammy, making her laugh.. do silly stuffs.
we sent tammy home & make way to my place..
i gtg for some rest from this exhaustion..
celebrating dad's bday tmr though his bday today..
but still..

Happy 47th Birthday Ayah! (:

{ 02:57:00 }

i just quite came back from meeting sugar..
sorta pick him up from work..
got my desktop fixed then rushed
cos i dont wanna be late again when meeting him..

gotta meet him at 5:45 latest 6 at admiralty..
while busy installing software for the comp,
i lost track of time as it was a quarter past 4.
brace through everything, chased after the bus & train..

unfortunately, i had this sarawak bugger stalking me
all the way from under my blk til admiralty.
i dont exactly know ~~what the hell~~ he wanted.
he cant stop staring at me though i shouted at him.
~~fucking hell you dumbhead!~~

i reached admiralty & headed for the toilet
that moron waited for me until sugar came out of the class..
phew- ~~freaking asshole!~~
meet up with sugar's colleagues & headed off..

first, it was just the two of us in the car..
then it felt weird so i decided to ask Ana along..
since Malissa & Effendy was heading to town, they came along too!
they made an awful lot of noise but it was all laughters.

once those 2 alighted, sugar, Ana & me went for dinner
at Spize, located somewhere near Zion Rd.
the food was okayy.. but slow service & bad communication.
we head for karaoke session since my top wasnt very suitable
for us to go bowling or pool.. & movie? was out of the league.

sang songs, teased each other, met people from my past..
saw my ex-colleague with my ex-date.. they're best buds?! omg.
we had a great time singing songs, reminiscing old times
then sent Ana off before heading home.

it felt kinda awkward just being in the car with him.
lately, i cant be myself in front of him or my sister..
its just so wrong being me, aint sure why though.
nvm. i just gotta be less spontaneous i guess-
kissed him goodnight & came home feeling stupid..
oh gosh!- whats wrong?

Monday 23 June 2008 { 12:42:00 }

after a 'hectic' week..
literally hectic.
we met up yesterday to clear all the probs..

i didnt really wana meet him..
but i do love him & i dont wana jeopardise this rship.
so, gotta ignore my conscience & work towards the best..
all the way frm my place til he drove up to Sentosa gateway,
we hardly converse..
hardly is still an understatement.

gosh.
tanjong beach looked so different in the day..
reminiscing 30th sept-
so much has changed since that day.
we walked all the way till the tentage.
i was trembling so badly..

well, a part of me cant face him cos i'll break down..
the other was..
im afraid of facing reality that i might have to leave him.
we talked, got emotional & sorta solve the matter.
okayy, maybe not solve.
but narrowed down to the source of the problem..

phew~
good riddance with tensions..
dearest got hungry so we headed to vivo
for an early dinner then went hunting for ana's prezzie.
we got sweets at action city cos couldnt find prezzie.

head to causeway point & saw hafiz..
went round in circles & found the suitable gift (:
yipee! and i got a mug & a membership.
hahs-

tadaa!~

I n t r o d u c i n g , T a z z y & B u g s !

M y. N e w. M u g (: T h a n k s. S u g a r ! I t. K i n d a. R e m i n d s. M e. Of. Y o u -

went over to pioneer mall to pay installments..

then to his place for steamboat (:

yum-yum!

it was fun assisting his mum & sis in the kitchen

talking abt R(A)ted stuff.. bah!-

30min of preparation, 2hrs of eating, 15min of tidying up.

worth it..

well, i probably need some rest

since i just came home from jogging! *smiles-
take care everyone..

to SA gfs, i cant wait for school to start! i miss you girls!
*waves goodbye-*

take a look at this.. hahs-

Th i s. Ts h i r t. L o o k s. S c a r y. B u t. I m. L o v i n '. I t (:

Thursday 19 June 2008 { 16:20:00 }

gosh.

a part of student council..

omg! upcoming camp on 25th.

dad's bday!- darn.

im enveloped by probs.. again.

when will it ever end?

i need some time to recuperate also

right?-

Saturday 14 June 2008 { 15:41:00 }

i cant take it no more ..
do you have to do this to me ?
i don’t know my mistakes
yet you demoralized me time & time again
since the day school commenced .
maybe its for the best ,
im really sorry .
my patience & endurance has gone low ..
im leaving ..

I Still Love You

Friday 13 June 2008 { 10:03:00 }

term 1 has finally ended (: phew-
no more waking up early & hoping there's no traffic jam..
i looked forward to yesterday since its..
dragonboating!

probs aside, i wanna enjoy my day there in Changi.
boyfie sent me to school. thanks baby!(:
school started but all of us couldnt wait for lesson to end.
we girls were all geared up for the occasion
sue packed nasi lemak for our lunch(; thanks gf!

lunch ended & we waited for jannah before
heading to the admin area's shelter..
we were sure early cos we wanted the most comfy bus
we chat, gossipped, took pics while waiting
for aidil & adam to arrived..(:
aidil arrived, took our photos before heading to find the guys.

time came & off to changi..
sat with tammy in the bus & now, we know who aidil's dating!
*rubs palms gleefully-
reached changi, got changed & we're the assigned boat to capsize!
wohoo- then aidil made a joke as a response to annie soon.
*later when we paddle, we shall say debit, credit. debit, credit*

then because some of us didnt wanna come school the next day
another joke came up..*hahahahaha-
*paddle right, annie soon. paddle left, tong chi kong*
what the hell, right? i know. but damn funny.

got the vest, carried the boat & off to the sea..
the instructor took our pics while we paddle & capsized.
we had ling, long & an indian instructor.
apparently, due to the waves.. we capsized again
after the race between dragonboats.. darn.

so instead of once, we multiple capsized.. shitto.
it was still interesting, its kinda lame if you dragonboat
yet not get wet at all.. but our team were very energetic.
in the end, every other boat capsized.

shit happens. we got changed & headed back to school
to accompany ally who wasnt feeling very well..
ally's dad fetched her while bf fetch sue, liha & me
went dinner at cck park & sue has a nicky now..
we couldnt eat due to sue & boyfie's debate
that ended cracking us up so much til we cried..

safter dinner, sent the girls off before he sent me home
to get my stuffs to stay over at his place.
my darling uncle came by, mamang mimi(:
stay & chat for a while before heading to sugar's place..

there wasnt really much to converse..cos we both needed to rest.
so we jus talked & talked til we both fell asleep.
i reached home at 7plus cos bf had to go to work
so he sent me off home..
thanks sweetheart(: see you later!
*muacks!- love you!

Wednesday 11 June 2008 { 11:31:00 }

haiz..
probably not the best of months
but im sure glad i met up with you..
(:
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anyway, monday was hilarious..
i surprised myself by being helplessly hungry the entire day
though ive alrdy eaten. gosh!
after school, liha & i decided to head to IMM.
we ordered laksa & carrot cake! hahs-

the thing was, we ordered so much til we're bloated.
bleargh.
we were elated but disappointed over the ongoing sales!
dammit. I Wanna Go Shopping!!
dearest sugar picked us up & sent liha home.
we checkout WM Popular but it was closed
due to some unforeseen blackout. argh!

had to go all the way til Lot1 to get his stationery.
well, i dint wana drag the day cos
he seemed drained from sleep & problems.
poor thing.

well, yesterday met sugar after school to go out
just to ease our minds from the recent "troubles".
all i needed was to see him gleaming.. (:
it truly makes my day that i even agreed to Bowling!
hahs- i know i suck at it terribly.

he drove to marina sq & showed me the Everlast shoes.
omg. gorgeous.
its black with yellow words & royal blue lining.
we played 3 games of bowling (;
for the 1st time since that unfateful 'fall in the lane' event,
i managed to get a few strikes! impressive achievement.

thanks for the guidance sugar =)
after that, we got hungry & planned on eating
nasi lemak but boon lay market was packed.
darn. so we head to CCK park..
the flat fish was superb, must learn to cook it!
after the meal, headed back to my place
before he headed home..

shared probs with mum, seek advise from her..
helpful. somehow, ive alrdy made my choices
and im gona stick by it insolently.
my prayers goes every single soul thats close to me
lets hope everything escalates from now on. tc!

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btw sugar, thanks for sharing your thoughts with me.
at least i could roughy understanding the issues
amounting to the probs.. the conversations we had
in the car was truly enriching & i'll keep a mental note ya? (:

Sunday 8 June 2008 { 21:55:00 }

must i give up faith on you?
why? what have i done to deserve this?..
what did i do or say?
whats wrong, sugar?
these past 2 days was dreadful than pleasant.
i know im your gf.. but all this?
aint it too much?
its too much grief for me.
i dont know how to cope no longer.
-

4 consecutive events in 2 days?
god, i need help.
from JB - Car - BBQ chicken - Cinema.
how much more could i possibly stand?
im running outta depression pills..
help!

Friday 6 June 2008 { 17:16:00 }

hahs-
crazy, retard, insane, etc.

had the BFD role play discussion aft choir practice.
we were blabbering abt certain issues
before we saw H² coming towards our table.
we were busy doodling some smileys
that represented the 7 of us.
ally, jannah, joelle, tammy, salihah, sue & me!

these girls are the ones im closest to (:
so this H² said ‘Hi’ to tammy b4 heading to the loo.
i was too busy figuring out liha’s hp.
when he came out, i happened to shriek, ‘eiks!’
hahs-
this kuku then sms tammy some stupid stuff then
my brain registered so slow & by the time i shouted
‘oit, come back!’ that H² was probably off the school ground.
everyone burst out laughing at my reaction :P

sue then came up with some superhero-like scenario..
& the script was just,’weyy, come back!’
all of us has personal traits.. to thank for ((:

ally will shout with messing up her hair..
jannah with her goth-like attitude.
joelle & her stern looking clenching her fist..
liha busy with tryna tie her hair with chopsticks
sue, running & shouting with the devil horn (signature move)
with me posing & shouting with straightening my uniform.
all of us will be in a row & then we’ll split..
tammy will then appear with her bow & arrow to shot him.

hahs-
crappy, I know but we laughed til we cried in the canteen.
well, that’s all. I wana go & rest for a while. Take care dears!
and gfs, thanks for all the fun-loving moments during school.
Love You Darlings! (:

{ 07:15:00 }

Wednesday, 4th June

7 of us went out for lunch at IMM. the girls were hilarious. they always perk up my days (:
i hardly go to lunch with the guys cos i prefer girls company
as you could basically talk abt anything under the sun!

darling joelle accompanied me to get shorts in Giant. LJS's our lunch retreat..
well, we talked abt probs that bothered us currently.

we came slightly late for annie's class..

~~shit.~~

the best advanced bday gift was.. to see idayu!

nurul idayu, my classmate frm primary sch. she looked so different, gosh!
anw, we so gotta have a reunion. just us girls. okayy honey?

who needs guys when you can have Gorgeous Babes (:

((: *chuckles-
well, school term's ending soon..
unfortunately, we're all prepped up with CA's & test.
annie soon is killing me.- cos she doesnt know how to mark attendance.
now she's sending letters to our parents sayin that we're absent from school.

seriously, ~~wtf~~ !
what can we do? even section heads are hopeless!

i am so definitely gonna be in for plenty of preaching when the letter comes.
so school went on.. blah blah blah~

met dearest bf *grins-
he's at bishan station so i took the train there.. smiling so happily-
waited for a while then he came.. met some of his colleagues & close buds..

then we bounced off to have dinner at lucky plaza!

ikan lele.. my new crave. its damn nice lor-
he gave me a card(: with bday wishes. its purple, i loike!
after getting filled with food, went to cine.. to watch ' Narnia: Price Caspian '
*must watch k? prince handsome le-

while relaxing at the lounging area, a fat woman just flopped onto the seat,
making everyone almost bounce off it.. too bad boyfie didnt see it.
anyways, we talked abt probs and thats when i decide to get smth from my bag..

i found a bag with a pink box.
seriously people, i was afraid that it might be a bomb!
ya, i know. too much osama & mas selamat right?
opened it slowly, very slowly.. sugar must have gotten sick of watching me open it
when i finally did open it, i did the unthinkable.. *blush-

i pounced on him, shrieking..
the levi's specs that i was dying to get a month back. *gasp- its like, omg!-
i almost teared. i jumped. i squeaked.
I So So So Love BF & All the Things HE Bought!
Thank You Sugar!!
Sayang You Spuloh Kali Banyak lor!!

watched the movie & i was still smiling.. the movie ended kinda late.. 11plus?
but there's still train.. sat down talking. taking pics, laughing like crazy.
he's the 1st to wish me and be with me on the wee morning of my bday
thank you sugar for the time, effort & gift(: i appreciate it a lot!

here are the pics-

the pink box & purple handmade message card (:

this was the specs that im talkin bout..

now, its mine for the keeping (= *shrieks-

thanks sugar. you really shouldnt have.. gosh gosh gosh! *smitten-
now, im going paranoid about YOUR bday.. argh!-
its coming oh-so-very soon..

Thursday, 5th June

yes, i know im 'that' naive.. to not have realise what you guys were planning..
but really darlings, thank you so much!

truly appreciate it. a whole lot!

surprise in school-

presenting firay! with the cupcakes.

i really didnt know their plans.. so i just went with the idea of staying in class
while tammy & joelle supposedly went to archery room
after a while, sue was like,' lets go canteen, find tammy.'
and im like,'oh, ok lor-.'

reached the canteen with sue holding my hand, i didnt find anything suspicious with that
but then, a burst of voices singing happy birthday looking in my direction..*argh!-

wanted to run but everyone crowded me with aidil photographing the scenes..
i cried so i turned away from the camera

still shock & blushing like mad-

made some wishes & blew the candles.
i relighted the candles for everyone else to make a wish.
gosh, im 19yrs old!
the bestest gfs.. thanks loves (; *muacks!- at the back: ally, sue, joelle, jannah
in the front: tammy, me, lihathank you gffs for the surprise.. aidil for the pictures..
classmates for joining in the celebrating.. and everyone else that took part.
alex, thanks for coming down on my bday! we've missed you!

surprise at home-

came home after a tiring day in school. gotta study for BFD CA on wed..
went to my room, the next moment i was screaming..

a nicely wrapped up carlo rino gift bag (:

oh not a gift bag le, it is a..

a handbag inside!

handbag!- yipee(:i was literally making a hell lot of a noise.. tremedously!
and probably all my neighbours were cursing & swearing at me but..
*who cares- its my birthday, you ~~nitwits!~~

showered & got ready to go out for a bday dinner(:
had my cereal prawn, chilli crab, baby squid, etc.
cant remember, too many food! sumptuous meal, i must say.
everyone decided to go home after that..

but but, i wanted to meet bf on my bday *smiles- boarded 157 & met him near his place
just looking at him smiling is already a gift..*smitten-
stayed over at his place til his friend, mimi fetched us ard 2am & send me home..
now, i got to get ready for school.

thank you everyone for the birthday contributions!
totally. ultimately appreciated!

the end (:

Tuesday 3 June 2008 { 09:12:00 }

The only birthday wish I have for this year

is for my sugar to come back..
I just miss him so.
I know that you’re really putting in a lot of effort.
Im elated & I greatly appreciate that.
The only thing I really need..

Its Just You..

Sunday 1 June 2008 { 21:52:00 }

GSS, HERE I COME BAYBEH! *gosh-
yeah. the crazy 8 weeks of shopping frenzy!
tha time has come & i think its time for me to break my piggy bank & splurge.
those irresistible discounts & offers. sounds bimbotic right? haha.
thank god, school has not been a bummer.
ive been A-ing my tests. so its officially proven that i aint a BIMBO!
& those interesting classmates of mine never fails to bore me.
instead, those kick-ass peeps always entertain me with their stupid&lame jokes,
they manage to rock my undies. LOLX.

Ya Know What?
I THINK IT'S OFFICIAL!
idiotic peeps seem to love me when im alone in da train.
ive certified weirdos staring at me as if i have 4D numbers written neatly on my face.
waddahell right? maybe i own something that they're really craving for?
i dont even think im appealing enough.
one most recent incident was when an ang moh lady was staring at me.
she kept smiling.. many things crossed my mind at that moment.
"perhaps, she's LES. hahs".
and there'll be boys (hip hoppers?atheletes?ahbengs?mats?eurasian looking boys?)
who keep reading my face like as if im a goddess or something.
its such a turn-off & ill be trying to cover my face with a book or something..
i wish to slot in my head into my shirt but i wont want to imitate a tortoise.
and nowdays, ive been trying to act anonymously in public.
i really find it pretty irritating to be known to others.
low profile. i gotta be versatile,yet unknown to others in a way.
*WINKS*

an extremely idiotic primary schoolmate found me on friendster & msged,
"YOU SEEM TO BE FRIENDS WITH MANY SOCCER BOYS EH.
THOSE MORE POPULAR ONES SUMMORE."
YEA.YEA.
Say That AGAIN & i'll SLAUGHTER you.

talking abt blog hoppin,i really cant stand horrible looking girls
who got cheeks to diss other girls who are way prettier than them.
like, c'mon girls, get a frigging life okay!
lately, a shameless shit added me on friendster & thanks to my stupidity,
i gladly accepted her on my friends list.
not knowning of her ulterior, hidden motive.
one bloody motherfcuker.
c'mon, why does IT ever even cross ur mind that

i was flirting with your current bf?
the answer lies within.
it justs shows your insecurity girl.
JUST BCOS' I LOOK WAY BETTER DEN U?
but hey, i'll never want to break a relationship apart.
i still have my own pride.
and please get ur facts right.
ive never flirt with your bf,but he's da one who was trying his luck with me.
like seriously.pfft. however,he failed.
i dont think its fair for you to put on the blame on girls instead of your bf. tsk*
nowdays, ive got phobia of accepting others on my friends list.
minus that slut, ive seemed to garner myself some other stalkers too.
TERRIBLE RIGHT? SO PEEPS, DONT ACCUSE ME OF BEING UNFRIENDLY
BUT I WAS JUST BEING CAUTIOUS!

ALRIGHTY!I GOTTA RUN. EX-DATE JUST POPPED OUT ON MY MSN CONVO.
and those multiple text msges on my celly are yet to be replied!