Monday, 14 July 2008
{ 23:07:00 }
gosh.. sugar, this post is for you..
this is hard.
i know, i shouldnt have done so.
i didnt chose for it to be that way..
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what does he mean to me right now?"
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do i love and care about him?.."
the fact is, i do care a lot about your well being.
you mean so very much to me.. and..
i love you deeply from the bottom of my heart & soul..
but due to certain conflicts that we had, questions arise.
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do i truly love him no matter how he's attitude is like?"
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am i in love with the right guy but at the wrong time?"
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will we both ever be able to meet each other's needs?"
i do wanna spend my lifetime with you..
be there with you through whatever turbulence..
enlightened just by seeing you smile or laugh though i had a bad day
i dont want you.. i just need you so much.
the care, concern, love..
whatever you name it, im smitten by all your gestures & words.
im just doubtful of why, someone so superior as you
would ever fall for an undermined like me?
what do i possess? tell me, i dont know.
am i deserving enuff to receive sucha gift from God?
it wasnt that i didnt dare to look you in the eye,
telling you just how much i love you..
its just that i dont wanna say it cos i dont think you'd believe
my passed failed rships, werent helpful.
i never learnt much, may be even nothing.
i wont wanna say I Love You cause..
whatever ive done, just isnt sufficient to prove it.
i apologize for disappointing you.
im pledging to you & myself to strengthen the feelings of love
and to actively maintain our relationship.
i wanna be seriously committed, have a serious relationship
and promise to be there for the you if things get tough..
you gotta gimme time.. ive only learnt your other side, recently
im really putting my best effort to understand you better.
i see you with all your imperfections, yet i know you're perfect for me.
but are you willing to wait?
i need you so much cause i love you sugar..
gdnight.
[ please sms/email/call me once you've read this ]
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"
You never lose from loving, you lose from holding back" -
Erin Rose
