Sunday, 10 August 2008
{ 23:05:00 }
i wished i really was.. did i? *shakes head-
not possible. im still alive.. i can still breathe normally.. i can still type.
i can sense everything thats occurring around me.
i still very well can experience that. oh could be.. right?
but.. why? why do i feel so empty & dead?
is my body still thinking that im alive when in actual fact, my soul's dead.
oh god, have i been perished beneath the soil of the earth-.
whatever that took place this morning, left me totally speechless..
did you not realise what you did? dont you know one bit what happened?
i thought i could help you out but you wont allow me to.
im a Pest, Hindrance, Disappointment, Trouble to you.. true?
why didnt you just tell me? i could very well not put hopes on anything.
am i really, worst than all your ex girlfriends? shout it in my face.
have i ever hit you for no apparent reason. that one slap wasnt even comparable
to what i got.. i slapped you ONCE & that was your own vow you broke..
i no longer mean anything to you.. now, i can finally realise that.
a replacement from your previous relationship, is probably what i am to you.
isnt it? dont you think so? i pushed my patience, pride & ego aside.
just so that i could cater to your every wants & needs.. yet..
this is what you returned me? you wanted my help but you wont let me try.
you never did let me. not once! never!-
have i been denying the facts for so long? all those things people told me,
were they ever true? why did they see it but i dont? was i blinded?
did i make a mistake? when did i make it?-
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why didnt you just kill me? why not?! i prayed you had. i wished you did!
How Could YOU Possibly Put Me Through Such Thing?
What the HELL Were YOU Thinking?!
