♫♪♥A²DeeLA™ TWENteen, popular & saucy!
am i single or attached? hmm..
5th June 1989 gemini the twins BuKit View Pri St. MarGaret'S sEc ItE cOlleGe WeSt (CleMeNti) please leave if you despise me ((: i love my baby, so quit trying-
precious .
GOD AlMighty
cherished, my FaMily
am Obsessed with myself
iLy gFF, Nadiah
thaHOTsexy boyfriendOFmine(:
accessories.clubbing.cute hot guys.
movies.drama/acting.music. cooking.household chores.gym trainings. making new friends((: chocolates.intriguing storybooks.
prettydresses.ben&jerrys. tasmania plushies (:
mocha/caramel frappe!slurps- mascaras&eyeliners everlast.adidas.nike. chaos.forever21.mango.
photography.photoshop&photoscape.
cottonon.la senza.zara.
victoria secrets. apple bottoms.
vintage inspired clothings. charles&keith.heatwave. mondo.pedro women.
dressups for great occasions
brownsparkly eyeshadows!
tagboard .
execrated .
deceived emotional abuse!*shriek-
traumatic incidents overwhelmed by questions falling in love!!*sobb*
any form of betrayal being treated like a fool being TOO fickle desperateguys*major turnoff!* ending up cashless treachery
backstabbed? being disconsolidated clubbing buayas
iHATEmyself for being too nice )):
desired .
meeting my baby, someday :D lose weight & shape up paramour, sincerely for keeping new handphone !
a GIRLSday Out! (:
be the beauty with brains
being appreciated & loved dragonboating, kayaking , canoeing erm.. some real friends?
go travelling round the World (: karaoke-ing learn to eradicate irritants from life change my room decor ((: bowling? pool?
goals/achievements .
keeping this relationshipalive
get into aarts& sports cca iteStudent Council lose weight to 48kg or toned up bday gift hunting!help- 'A's my results,'B's at least vacation with MokCitDut!(:
GPA 4.0 with scholarship*wishing-
find a stable career! engagement? marriage?!
sis bday was on the 12th of sep.. as we age, no more major celebrations. oh yes, i still owe HIM money due to sis bday prezzie.
anyways, tmr is already raya but i dont feel the festive mood im still missing nadiah & this year hasnt been pleasant. well, still gotta cheer up & cbrate right? so i'll keep smiling, laughing & anticipating tmr's events. till the next post,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!-
Monday 29 September 2008{ 23:51:00 }
went for Briefing at Balestier ITE got addicted to playing Bomberman a day ago yesterday went out to geylang with granny & granddad with sugar((: didnt expect going out w the elderly could be interesting!-
yes, thanks sugar for changing the PSP's image.. now its pink instead of white.. haha! anyway, it isnt mine. back to today.. met liha chat awhile while heading to boon keng. tammy after attending to some archery stuff..
played some guessing games & interacted. we had to do this online character survey based on DiSC. initally Ms Pam made us guess our character before giving the profiling. its hilarious to judge ourselves, reflecting our flaws & strengths..
here's a part of my character's description:
"Nur Fadhilah is a highly interactive & engaging individual. She believes people are good by nature & deserve second chances in life but is firm to those who does shape up. Due to her optimism, she tends to be indirect about expectations in hope that people might take the cue. She thrives in an environment that allows interaction & is highly committed to service. A stable & steady worker who enjoys working in a stable environment with little/no rules abound. Her need for variety causes her to be fickle at times, for good or bad. Team support allows her to multi task & explore elements outside the job scope. She contributes as a catalyst, encourage participation from all members, & a counselor, attends to hurts as they progress, in the team."
what a mouthful. anyone agree/disagree with what is mention? i need feedback so that i wont disappoint anyone.. thank you. appreciated. just quite came back from chilling out w sugar at west coast mac guess what we did there from 8 til 11?- hehehe! played PSP! sat there eating, drinking & playing our games. we need to take a chill pill, you know((:
to my family, sugar & gfs, dont stress up ya? smile always. so you can solve your problems with a peaceful non-impulsive mind. oh well, im off to bed soon. am so exhausted so goodnight! still.. italy, my dearest MokCitDut!
Wednesday 24 September 2008{ 23:39:00 }
Split between Friendship & Relationship. so whats the outcome?-
Saturday 20 September 2008{ 22:05:00 }
frankly, ive been questioning my status so often lately.. doubts kept filling my head time & time again. what if it happens again? though he's changing, im still very uncertain. there's always this stupid what if's going on in my head.
do people really change for the better? what if they just dont? i know i shouldnt dwell on whats happen in the past but i cant help doing so. we're picking up things extremely well, surprisingly.. everyday seems like im just giving him a chance to prove himself, but not giving my heart a chance to accept reality.
we really need time & patience to get us by.. i hope my instincts were all mere doubts, nothing more than that so many ive known are passing on, leaving me behind. im in need of somebody who's supportive of all my advancements and thats so hard to come by these days.. gosh-
*Tammy won 1st in the girls team, 3rd NOT 4th for interITE!-
Wednesday 17 September 2008{ 21:09:00 }
my holidays has been packed with meetings, briefings & courses phew. exhausting.. its the 2nd week of fasting! raya's coming soon, gotta clean up my house. cook COOK cook!! had the event management thingy today..
came kinda late & found out that we gotta do planning for our important Investiture next year.. gosh! overall, kinda boring talk but what cheered me up was tammy. congrats on getting the fourth position for interITE! ((:
had a presentation yesterday at balestier.. rush like mad. bump into farhan & got free pizza. thanks ya papan! met sugar at bukit batok & off to dinner at New Hawa.. crabs! but i still love my Sunshine Plaza ketams ley.. how?-
- " i think i look weird dressing up like that. btul tak syg? macam manenye office girl gitu kan? haha! so the buruk! "
really, i wonder where i'll be in the future.. like. what career? status? my education level? family wellbeing? haha! im so anticipating my future. hope it awaits me with vibrant ambiance & open arms.. gdnite everyone thats loved by me !- muacks!
Monday 15 September 2008{ 16:56:00 }
"A Very BIG Thank You" we can make it through, right? ily sugar-
Friday 12 September 2008{ 00:53:00 }
Thank You So Much!
- i definitely didnt need any of that from you.
Wednesday 10 September 2008{ 00:12:00 }
a very devastating major relationship downfall reoccurance of emotional pressure.. doubled up with whether im gonna do well for my papers. i so need & gotta make it through ITE..
past sat, manage to meet up with cousins.. thanks kak eqin & kak etty for hearing me out. guess we're all facing probs, cousins to girlfriends.. i feel loved thinking that im not alone in this problems.
i am so looking forward to the Blaze Camp on 061008.. one definite way to get my mind off all pressures(: after today's briefing, sat down in the canteen with tammy & salihah cant help reminiscing on good/bad times.. well tammy, lets pray they wont demolish the building ya? *hints-
went windowshopping from PS, heeren, far east to lucky.. break fast at Ayam Penyet Ria((: tammy eat with her hand. it made her look so the melayu.. hari raya coming too! a girls day out was much needed..
* i appreciate that you fetched me though you're tired after work.
thank you(: somehow we need to sort things out asap, seriously..
Monday 8 September 2008{ 07:10:00 }
I Gave Everything I Could/Should To Be Your Girlfriend disappointed, my effort was not appreciated at all instead i was hidden from the truth since the beginning of our relationship
Friday 5 September 2008{ 20:15:00 }
the past week took a great toll on my appetite & health.. fasting month has already begun (: i love this time of the month.. its very enriching for me.
weekend wasnt so bad.. i pretty much enjoyed every moment of it. watching 'Death Race', cool effects(: stay out the night, clearing my mind.. met tammy<3 on sun.. we're not alone in problems. we'll assist each other by advising & consoling. decisions are theirs. thank you tammy, cheryl, liha, sue, joelle & ally for listening.
now, we're still in the process of solving.. everyone can change right? so giving them a chance wont do harm. slight discrepancies, determines the final termination. ive made a firm stand from that moment on.. i can forgive & forget but i wont forget this matter.. sorry.
i'll try to get over it, trust me i will try. you just gotta gimme time to recuperate from the trauma.. my blog's dying due to problems.. i need a new path in life((: went for the Personal Grooming & Etiqueete course at ITE Amk.. done by a Miss Singapore((; now i learn something new!
