Sunday, 3 May 2009
{ 23:47:00 }
have you ever reached a point in your life,
where you know you gotta make a lot of changes..
to make your life more enriching?
ive reached mine, at least thats what i feel like right now..
have you been in a situation where your mind
and your heart contradicts each other?
im going through that right now and somehow i feel like..
im more of a 'heart' person, i let my emotions run faster than my mind
until i dont realise whats gonna happen to me
for being to kind and compliant to some many individuals
who seem to take my generosity for granted..
i gotta make some changes in my life for my personal growth
i wanna be successful in my life and i dont need anyone who isnt supportive
i want someone who is willing to understand my situation
as much as i am willing to put up with his..
kept feeling like im deprived from my teenage years due to unnecessary commitments
i have to put those wrong choices behind and pick myself back up, slowly
focus on my education, make in to polytechnic with a scholarship
i think im going off track lately..
i dont need a relationship if its gonna pull me down,
i dont need fake friendship cos i have proper trustworthy friends to begin with
i dont need boys, guys, jerks or men to keep me happy..
i can do it on my own unless they are willing to stay and accept me as i am
i wanna be that successful somebody who would stoop over all those pest
and say, "hey, at least ive made a mark in my life and be somebody. have you?"
i know it sounds egoistical and mean, but who cares?
if i become successful, its gonna be my own hard work anyway
i dont sell myself to reach a mark in any place.. my pride isnt worth trading.
i want this to be clear, if you're gonna befriend me
for the sake of making use of me or to hurt my pride or whatsoever
please, dont try. i can be nasty when i want to and when i choose to be..
if you ever test my patience and you'll hate me for it..
to those who are or have simply taken me for granted, no worries..
god has his ways, retribution will definitely come upon you
i dont need your sympathy, i am no charity box
thank you, have a good night.
besties, sorry if my post sound harsh.. i just had enuff rubbish.
kak etty and kak eqyn, i know you are always supporting me with my choices
kak zyzy, though we arent close.. i appreciate you comforting me..
to 3Ds, i guess i really have meant nothing all along ):
