Friday, 8 May 2009
{ 22:22:00 }
i just wish he knew how im feeling at this moment..
i really want him to know it so badly but i dont know if he still cared
im crying my life away since monday and it hasnt been easy
the pressure from projects, the lost of him from my life,
i dont have anything right now..
i want that somebody who i thought had loved me all along..
i need him back in my life but i cant seem to push aside all the hurt im getting..
i really just need him back, it feels like ive made the worst wrong decision ever in my life..
i dont want this, i never wanted this to happen.
i just wanted some time to get myself out of the depression that im facing.
i need treatment, but nobody's hearing me..
im screaming and crying to sleep every night to wake up with no more morning msgs..
to live through monday til now without a single call from him..
its like as if, he really wanted it to be this way too.
i just wanna hear that comfort in his voice saying im gonna be alright..
that no matter what he still loves me and is always gonna support me through whatever..
now, he's negotiating money with me! im hurt. im beyond depressed!-
i dont want that bike to be sold, i want it for myself.
please just dont sell it, it mine. its mine somehow.. i will pay.
gimme time, please. i promise i'll pay.. please..
i sound stupid right now, i dont care if anyone says i do..
i just dont want it to be sold, i love that bike.. i love everything about it.
its like my retreat from the problems i have..
if you're gonna take that away too, i have nothing..
i have nothing anymore.
i dont have you, i dont have that bike, ive got no life to carry on by..
just please, please.. i need help. help me out.
i dont wanna lose anything else right now.. i dont know what to do anymore.
im typing and crying and i dont know if im repeating the same things again..
my brain isnt functioning right.. im starting to hyperventilate.
oh god, please what do i do? please. just please.
