Sunday, 7 June 2009
{ 08:08:00 }
the breakup was probably the best way to end everything..
all these while, i suppose, i just mean nothing.
maybe im just the pain that comes along with that tight slap
the pain that wont last for long but the memory of it will last a lifetime
guess, i was right. i am just a punching bag, vent all anger on me
i wont feel the pain cos im meant to be a puppet..
a simple question, led to a tiff before getting a bruised and torn lip..
gotta face the school with these scars again.
once was never sufficient though i said that you could hit me..
i had to let you do that, to make me realise that i wasnt worth your time
all the troubles ive caused the past almost 2 years..
i was a deficit to your wonderful life
was never good, wealthy, beautiful or perfect enough to be with you
i cant even cook the maggi the way you love it..
the simplest thing like that, i cant fulfill.. what about a lifetime?
maybe i should be like cik rose or nek haji, be alone and not get hitched..
am destined to be that way, i cant satisfy anyone.
yesterday night was the last night that i could ever held you so close
that was prolly the only present i got while watching haunting in connecticut
after that, its all but memories of what we've had..
i dont have anything to hold on to, no more pictures of the two of us..
no more pictures of all the laughter we've had..
all gone, emptied out just within a faulty SanDisk thumbdrive..
just maybe after your whole ordeal, we might reconcile..
just perhaps. or maybe we would be total strangers, i wont know..
i shouldnt wait on you any longer, you keep doing things to make me hate you
so i must leave, and obey this last request.. thank you.
thank you for teaching me so much within this past years..
thanks for showing me what love and closeness meant..
thank you for all the gifts you kept showering though i said no..
thanks for sending, fetching and accompanying me to many places..
thank you for meeting me though you're tired from work..
if im ever gonna continue, i dont think i have enough space to mention
all the Thank You's that you deserve from me..
just this time, since im gone, i want your family to be more important to you
the next time you were to find your soulmate,
please put her after your family, maybe that way it wont end up like this
i gotta respect your decision, i know it'll be hard..
but ive got no choice, no more..
whatever future lies ahead of you..
just remember, i'll support your every wise decision
whether we are still friends or just total strangers, i have just a request
to never forget me, us and the times we've had..
thats most probably the least i could ask for
thank you for all that you've sacrificed.. god bless~*
