Wednesday 15 July 2009
{ 12:48:00 }
i need to breathe too.. i am nobody's slave and i love it that way.
you want me to give my all in the project, i will..
just as long as family commitments doesnt surfaces as my main priority
i hate it when i get ordered around to finish a project
when the one thats ordering me, doesnt fulfill his/her own parts either..
i work at my own pace and i always get my things completed
without the need of anyone reminding me..
the more somebody barks at me to get things done, the more i feel unmotivated
within this group, nobody appointed anyone as a leader,
so i understand that we are of the same par therefore we should seek help
not boss the each other around.. am i right?
and if you seek somebody's opinion, yet you argue your way through..
just so the brochure layout goes according to your choice
then, whats the whole point of discussion?
you just made her tired for coming over then you piss her off..
this is a group project and i know i couldnt make it since i had priorities
i dont lead a simple life,i have siblings to take care of
i hardly meet my bf for that matter cos we are both so busy with commitments!
im no longer hitting the gym after school cos of projects..
yet this is what i get for a simple request of pictures? is this how it is?
you expect me to get the brochures done by thursday
when i dont have ANY of the pictures to input for the brochure..
you had sunday, monday and tuesday to send them to me
but to my dismay, i had to go calling you up so you would send them..
unfortunately, it wasnt send therefore the brochure couldnt be completed yesterday
yet you went over to report to mr henry about this
and not informing him that you didnt send the pictures over..
before the whole project began, you said if we had problems we settle as a group
yet in front of me, you never said anything bad..
but behind me, there's so much story circulating about my commitment
i think its pretty childish to slam you own group mates behind their backs
this isnt the only project that has you trying to take charge of..
i am just tired of you ordering me around, i dont she her doing that to me at all..
if i cant get the pictures by today, god knows when im even able to start
with the whole layout.. budget? dont even get me started.
*september holidays, im gonna go off for a vacation away from this pressure!
my health's deteriorating.. ): so little time to finish up so many things
and people in this whole are getting almost senseless
or less understanding or purely inconsiderate of how busy other people are
you need to understand, you're not the only one who's busy..
throw yourself in my shoes, with my emotions and perspective, see how it goes..
being the eldest in the family and having everyone depending on you
no matter how packed your schedule already is..
it isnt a very simple laidback life at all!
if it goes to the extend that my prayers time gets compromised,
i am so gonna become insane!
Sunday 5 July 2009
{ 14:11:00 }
fall in and out of love is tiring than doing 5 sets of 30 squats with a barbell..
each time a relations ends, you just feel free again
until another 'mr perfect' comes along and sweeps you off your feet..
and the whole dramatic sequel continues yet again.
here i am once again, tryna believe that love is just another facade of injustice
but i cant, cos i know the epidermis of love is always blissful
and its gets sour once the layers are peeled one after the other.. right?
what exactly is love?i cant get a sense of equanimity..
i can have as many guys as i want as my boyfriend, anyone could..
but how could you possibly fall in love with someone over a short time
like you two have just got attached and you said that you're madly in love with him
and within months, you split up and you cry buckets for days
then you found another and said its love. it goes on and on, never ending..
so how do you define love? is it just a saying or is it for reality?
im gonna leave the question for everyone to ponder..
i know cousin etty understands what i mean, we've gone through problems
that people our ages usually doesnt.. unfortunate soul.
Je t'aime, mon ange.. Tu es mon plus beau souvenir. On peut se revoir? Oui, je me souviendrai de vous toujours.. xoxo,
then after makan, she go meet boyfriend :D