♫♪♥A²DeeLA™ TWENteen, popular & saucy!
am i single or attached? hmm..
5th June 1989 gemini the twins BuKit View Pri St. MarGaret'S sEc ItE cOlleGe WeSt (CleMeNti) please leave if you despise me ((: i love my baby, so quit trying-
precious .
GOD AlMighty
cherished, my FaMily
am Obsessed with myself
iLy gFF, Nadiah
thaHOTsexy boyfriendOFmine(:
accessories.clubbing.cute hot guys.
movies.drama/acting.music. cooking.household chores.gym trainings. making new friends((: chocolates.intriguing storybooks.
prettydresses.ben&jerrys. tasmania plushies (:
mocha/caramel frappe!slurps- mascaras&eyeliners everlast.adidas.nike. chaos.forever21.mango.
photography.photoshop&photoscape.
cottonon.la senza.zara.
victoria secrets. apple bottoms.
vintage inspired clothings. charles&keith.heatwave. mondo.pedro women.
dressups for great occasions
brownsparkly eyeshadows!
tagboard .
execrated .
deceived emotional abuse!*shriek-
traumatic incidents overwhelmed by questions falling in love!!*sobb*
any form of betrayal being treated like a fool being TOO fickle desperateguys*major turnoff!* ending up cashless treachery
backstabbed? being disconsolidated clubbing buayas
iHATEmyself for being too nice )):
desired .
meeting my baby, someday :D lose weight & shape up paramour, sincerely for keeping new handphone !
a GIRLSday Out! (:
be the beauty with brains
being appreciated & loved dragonboating, kayaking , canoeing erm.. some real friends?
go travelling round the World (: karaoke-ing learn to eradicate irritants from life change my room decor ((: bowling? pool?
goals/achievements .
keeping this relationshipalive
get into aarts& sports cca iteStudent Council lose weight to 48kg or toned up bday gift hunting!help- 'A's my results,'B's at least vacation with MokCitDut!(:
GPA 4.0 with scholarship*wishing-
find a stable career! engagement? marriage?!
after watching LICENSE TO WED, i realised that there so many things in life that you're never certain of the slightest form of misunderstandings and pressure could end up with your relationship being entirely torn apart.. :(( to sum it all, the part where SADIE was in the resort room and BEN called :)) i was engulfed with emotions. it may have taken BEN an awful long time to clear his mind, thinking of what to write while scribbling toy trucks in the book of vows he finally wrote his vows - on the sand just outside SADIE's resort room's window
Thursday 8 October 2009{ 09:53:00 }
so thats what you think of me :( is this the kind of morning greeting im getting?! you're one peculiar american dude! thanks la you botak, i mean Mat Salleh Botak Gila :P
what have i done to seduce you? name them. you need some smacking! *grrr* will make you eat that middle eastern cuisine we ordered in :) remember the classic expression you gave? *chuckles* still, thanks toning me down when im crazy and cheering me up when i look a little too out of place ;D btw, hows the girlfriend?-. lol.
{ 02:34:00 }
Long Distance Relationship - LDR :((
being in LDR is very difficult and confusing family relatives friends mean well, but in all honesty they cant relate to the special challenges that come with these romances
people like me have difficulty being in such relationships or even talking about the possibility initially i kept thinking, how was i to face the awkward discussions? somehow i was falling for this man, i couldnt let go and just forget about him right?-. im not crazy to do such a thing gave it a shot and i didnt regret :))
LDR made me come to terms with whether my own relationship would be capable of withstanding pressures and expectations that comes with the distance.. which greatly require commitment, communication, time, and trust
being in a long distance relationship, i knew i had to compromise, adjust, recalculate and reconsider almost every aspect of the relationship.. making the relationship infinitely stronger as a result. truth is, the distance forces me to assess the quality and durability of my relationship being geographically distanced from him helped me identify whether my relationship is healthy and viable
people are always skeptical/condescending about me and my partner's abilities to keep things going.. but ultimately i know its only up to me with patience, trust and care, i know it can survive and work well even despite the distance.. i always kept in mind that communication leads to appreciation and evaluation
trust is essential, without it there's bound to be problems jealousy occurs, ending up with one controlling which often leads to mutual distrust distance is a great help to slowly open up to this relationship without the incessant presence of the partner the romance stays kindled since we're not around each other 24/7
though, its frustrating that there isnt intimacy, no hugging and kissing, the time difference is such a killer too :( difficulties in connecting due to lack of eye contact and no walks or dinners together :((
but then again, it makes the meetings so much more intense then how it would be with a local relationship its the quality not the quantity. well right now, i just really wish i have him beside me cuddling on the couch, laughing to silly sitcom or maybe just looking at each other..
i wanna wake up to march, not christmas, not new year.. just the month of march. i love you baby-.
Wednesday 7 October 2009{ 23:34:00 }
{ 21:31:00 }
his mother keeps texting, again-. when will she ever understand that ive already given up? dont you geddit, I DONT WANNA BE WITH YOUR SON ANYMORE! ive moved on and it simply made me stronger.. never once did my parents restrict me from any of my passion even though it may sound crazy, they were supportive! as for your son, everything is a BIG NO! why?- because he's jealous about anything.
i cant meet FEMALE cousins cos i'll end up with random guys numbers? my schoolmates are too childish and boisterous- so its a NO?! guys friends shouldnt be in my phone list, it spells disaster heading to the mall to buy stationeries without him is SO WRONG! staying in school until late to finish up my project = A LIE? going for any student council meetings = flirting with more boys?! he cheats then lies = my fault so i deserve the beating-. flirting with a co-worker in front of me = i am a guy, why are you so jealous?!
MEETING HIM was the only sane thing he thinks I SHOULD DO!?! - and this still makes him thinks that im going out late into the night and sleeping around with just about any men?! im a social escorts, im a prostitute, a cheap bitch? blah blah blah~ given up caring about what you say, i know myself better. hours day after day, i sat home just so you wont worry while you're at work yet im being flushed down by such accusations, thats obnoxious!
there's plenty to rake up but this is just about enough, you dont deserve such a popularity anyway. for so you realise, im only twenty this year. ive got a life ahead of me.. gimme a break. he's twenty-eight years old! i wanna live through my pre-adult life too! without this obsessive being. brain still functioning - i can make my own decisions, thanks.
as much as i appreciate all the times ive shared with your family, i still dont think you should pressurize me into staying why, under any circumstances must i do so? i really wont mind the idea of staying friends with you and family but being with him is something totally absurd.
Tuesday 6 October 2009{ 19:29:00 }
so thats how i look like for gym ;D under whatever circumstances, i dont look appealing. you old pervs, i dont look anything like a sex kitten in the gym! omg. an eyeliner is used to perk up my eyes which by far, doesnt make that much of a difference ;D
messy hair; clipped upfrench manicure; protection from getting chipped. not vain nor high maintenance, i just love my nails-.
Monday 5 October 2009{ 19:56:00 }
so the mum calls me, i ignored. then she starts calling both phones?! gosh. she text me saying that she went to visit him etc and my mind was thinking - so, what has that got to do with me? that dude apparently told her he miss me etc so being nice, i told her to tell him to simply forget it. like any mum would be, she became a little defensive *sighs* i didnt dump your son! :D he did the dumping after brainless accusations so i dont see my fault here ;D
Wednesday 30 September 2009{ 03:40:00 }
went to etty's place ;D head home then out with etty and mon. - supper was hilarious, with ott jokes. thanks eh mon.
after supper drove up to kent ridge; damn haze -_- headed all the way to changi and conversation stirred in.. ghosts?! went through to the changi village and saw sexybabes *ROFLMAO* did a roundabout to the chalets, passing by the famous Old Changi Hospital-. then back home cos they had to work while i need my gym :))
Monday 28 September 2009{ 23:56:00 }
tribute to farhan; 010107 reminiscing those times we've had.
that pool incident ;Dremember the meal @ seoul garden? :D
i know, farhan. you told me so, i shudv' listened.
Sunday 27 September 2009{ 05:30:00 }
;D we'll hangout more okayy ila ?-
Saturday 26 September 2009{ 07:58:00 }
omg! this kid is awesome. 11 years old with that kinda move? wow! amazing talent!
so firzanah needed her handphone repaired, i on the other hand needed drugs ;P well, sort of. havent had any sleep in 2 days, been rather busy with visiting etc showered got changed and headed to the industrial area being oblivious to its exact location - though i knew the street name i suggested on taking the bus :D *smartypants*
guess what? it wasnt worth the 44cents at all! the place was like 2 bus stops away, about 15 min walk.. darn it! and we even needed directions to get there. it was all too silly old men kept looking cos the place was kinda secluded rushed up, got the pills, dumb reception! and headed back to base
since we were both starving mad, we head to BPP you have so gotta try this french fries from this shop - errr.. wait, i dont remember the name! sorry-. anyway, got fries then head to LJS for the proper meal being girls and all full of energy, pictures we taken every few min :))
for once, i slept on the bus wihtout my head bobbing like mad. at least thats what sister told me -_- idk, she was busy texting so even if i did go "hiphop" she might not have notice it eventhough she's sitting beside me-
we didnt really go on a extreme shopping spree :( i was crazy over changing my hair colour.. she was, again, too engrossed in texting god-knows-who. got some tanks etc before heading home.. never knew falling asleep in the bus was so much fun ;D have a great evening everyone!
Tuesday 22 September 2009{ 17:46:00 }
in your face :DD
{ 02:20:00 }
:DD you know who you are. thanks for believing in me all along :DD sorry if i made your bill expensive, due to overseas calls why not, you move to singapore? :)
Saturday 19 September 2009{ 05:55:00 }
gosh, ahmet! :DD was that really necessary?! you made me embarrassed. but im glad to have chat with your sister she's such a great soul :D
looking forward to staying with her in the apartment :D new environment for me but im glad btw, you owe me kebabs for this surprise okay? i dont care!
i want chicken kebabs from Bursa only! no place else, promise? :D
Wednesday 16 September 2009{ 03:06:00 }
why did i stay, why did i stay?
i hate when he doesnt help with the dishes even though he messes up the most and i beg him all the time to help me he knew that he should but he's lazy so he dont he's always not considering my feelings thinking too much for himself most of the time he's so damn selfish he dont even realize ive been treating him so well
im so much better than him he's so unworthy of me why should i stay, why should i stay tell me why?
i hate that we dont spend much time we barely see each other at all i dont even nag him about always working i just said i just wish every now and then that you'd call and i dont know why im still here i could have any man that i want he should step outside of himself to see how much ive loved him and all the things that he should have done for me that he just dont, just dont
and i realize, i was in love and i dont understand there's gotta be a better man for me so he should do his time and let me do what im suppose to because im better with life without him
*sorry to everyone who's been tryna make me realise, that life without him was much better :(
Sunday 13 September 2009{ 04:02:00 }
sahur dgn family :DD
we just came back from sahur at al amin, bukit timah and im super kenyang lor :D
yesterday was sister's birthday and we spent it at west coast, mcdonalds together with mama, mamang, azizi and ameerul.. did nothing much but just hanging around since sister loves west coast park's playground so much :D on the high note, conversation about my travelling has been approved! gosh, i really cant wait to travel overseas. alone-. wouldnt it be great?! :DD *dreaming~
Saturday 12 September 2009{ 01:33:00 }
ZOOM RAMADHAN! :DD
ily you guys so much-. ite clementi student councillors is the best! :DD need i say more? ;)
Sunday 6 September 2009{ 02:40:00 }
outings with cousins are always the best :DD we had additions today, though.. eqyn brought mas, the guy we met from sentosa etty brought mon, sort of work colleague/dating partner :D and i brought my sister :P
5:30pm meeting at paya lebar. as usually we cousins have the tendency to be late!- etty came first cos mon sent her over and that was already 5:45pm i reached almost close to her timing :D guess who's late this time? :P LOL
etty zanah and me went around city plaza to shop since arnold chicken was fully booked!? :( both some clothings and off to sit at the steps and wait for eqyn she came with mas, LOL. that guy from the flipping group at sentosa :D
after much menyangkong and discussion, we decided to rush to town to break fast and thanks MON for sending us :D mas brought 2 friends along but i remember only one of them, JAP off to lucky plaza, ayam penyet also full so no choice we makan at mcdonalds, geez.. apedah.
makan pun kecoh, kacau one another but mon kene rabak LOL, inside joke, cant share here. ask me and i'll relate it to you, okay? farhan called again asking if we're joining.. so we headed down to al-sheikh :DD
its sharin's advance birthday since he's going ns soon :D i wanna imagine how he'll look like botak :P the guys put up a mini performance, especially sharin..
fantastic bro! lets find you a recording label! nothing much left to say here, other than all the jokes :DD but too much to share so enjoy the pictures okay?
:DD cepat-cepat kahwin! faiz, :D buddy and counsellor since 2007. just us cousins - missing one though :( mas - the guy from the flipping crew at sentosa :P farhan the ex boyfriend :D da botak la dier-.sharin, me and this dude, whom i know since sec 3 *ROFL- we left really late, around 1am plus cos we waited for farhan *tsk tsk tsk* nasib baik mon antar :P cam-whoring while in the car, thanks mon for sending us home sorry about irritating you with the camera's flashes!
home sweet pineapples *you know right sis, pineapples? :P* goodnights-.
Thursday 3 September 2009{ 01:44:00 }
okayy; am revising for my exams right now :D hopefully it pays well and having that certain MR.T isnt a great help *lips are sealed* random snap, ;D
messy hair; clipped up
french manicure; protection from getting chipped.
that pool incident ;D
remember the meal @ seoul garden? :D
since we were both starving mad, we head to BPP
for once, i slept on the bus wihtout my head bobbing like mad.
we didnt really go on a extreme shopping spree :(
we just came back from sahur at al amin, bukit timah
faiz, :D buddy and counsellor since 2007.
farhan the ex boyfriend :D da botak la dier-.
sharin, me and this dude, whom i know since sec 3 *ROFL-
we left really late, around 1am plus cos we waited for farhan
home sweet pineapples *you know right sis, pineapples? :P*
